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Relationships Music Online Gaming http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/archive/134.html Thu, 29 Dec 2005 17:26:59 GMT someone got my codes!! arghh.. haha!! anyways, visit my new blog.. http://being-unloved.blogspot.com O_o;; she even maintained some texts.. the header text.. the header for the profile.. >.<;; shaxx.. haha!! http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/comments?id=134 http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/archive/133.html Mon, 30 May 2005 05:06:07 GMT †•there's nothing that won't change.. there's nothing that wouldn't end.. that's just the way things are..•† i don't know what it is.. but i'm tormented by this uneasiness everyday.. my heart is murmuring.. that's why i want to tear at it until blood spills... just got out of the hospital.. well, actually, it was my mother who had undergone an operation.. and i accompanied her there at the hospital.. so, that's the reason why i've been gone for like.. 5 days.. hehe.. ^_~v anyways, many things happened while we're there.. well, actually, not so many.. haha!! 'coz all i do there was eat,... (more) http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/comments?id=133 http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/archive/132.html Sat, 21 May 2005 21:46:33 GMT †•that fragile rainbow in my mind.. don't worry.. i won't ever forget you.. when the rain stops, the sun will definitely smile.. i wish that fragile rainbow would stay.. forever..•† wonderin' why i stopped posting entries?? well, it's 'coz there weren't much happenings during those days.. and well, if there are, i'll just tell you in this entry.. remember my MKR family?? well, they've been helping me a lot.. you know, keeping my mid off "THAT" thing.. and well, they've also been accompanying me when i'm lonely and when i need someone to talk to.. i mean, at MKR, i feel like i am wanted..... (more) http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/comments?id=132 http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/archive/131.html Sat, 07 May 2005 13:26:58 GMT †•a child.. that's what i see..•† i feel like crying, but i can't.. i feel like sleeping, still i can't.. i feel like having fun, but i still can't.. *sigh* i really don't know what's happening to me right now.. well, except for this ONE thing.. i have nothing to think about.. O_o;; that one thing that i'm really thinking about right now?? well, i'm really worried about something right now.. you see, my mother's sick and she has to undergo an operation.. T_T yes, a MAJOR OPERATION.. but.. we all try to keep our cool even with the operation.. i'm just glad that they found it out early.. i... (more) http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/comments?id=131 http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/archive/130.html Fri, 06 May 2005 14:55:03 GMT †•it's just that.. i thought everything CHANGED..•† if it wasn't for that stupid dream, i would be relaxed as ever.. but recently, it's all i've been thinking about.. damn it all.. i am getting perverted.. O_o;; *sigh* his face.. everything about him.. and every time i close my eyes, i see him.. his figure above me.. and me, writhing, below him.. it felt so real.. sweat dripping from his face.. those eyes that drown me in them.. his sweet voice saying my name over and over again.. waaaaaaaa.. i am getting perverted.. i can't believe this!! i crave for him!! waaaaaaa.. i don't want this!! i... (more) http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/comments?id=130 http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/archive/129.html Thu, 05 May 2005 15:40:44 GMT †•if i leave in silence, would you notice me? would you hate my absence? would you drown in your misery?•† haha!! what's with the title?? i dunno.. just felt like writing that as the title of this entry.. oh by the way, notice the background music?? ^_~v it's "EYES ON ME ACOUSTIC GUITAR" version.. haha!!^^ anyways, try to visit my other blog.. well actually, it's just my "MAY" blog.. and the entries since MAY 1 didn't change.. haha!! they're still the same.. but.. the layout's totally different.. ^_^ you might wanna DISABLE your POP-UP BLOCKER first though.. 'coz that layout is a pop-up... (more) http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/comments?id=129 http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/archive/128.html Wed, 04 May 2005 14:32:05 GMT †•weird.. it felt so real..•† well, it felt so weird.. i had this dream.. O_o;; and get this.. about.. HIM.. i can't believe i was so disappointed when i woke up from that dream.. *sigh* but it's true.. i did felt disappointed when i knew that it was just a drem.. T_T awww.. what's happening to me?! am i getting perverted or something?! O_o;; damn it.. well, you see.. perverted is really the RIGHT WORD for me right now.. T_T i mean, to have a dream like that.. >.<;; anyways, just let me tell you what happened in my dream.. O_o;; i don't really recall when where or how it all started..... (more) http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/comments?id=128 http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/archive/127.html Tue, 03 May 2005 14:30:28 GMT †•and they didn't even wake me up!!•† well, today.. i accidentaly slept earlier than i was planning to.. you see, i know that my sister's going to leave for Europe today.. so, i was planning on sleeping AFTER she left.. but.. i slept at 'bout 4am.. T_T and i didn't even see her before she left.. damn it!! well, at least i got to talked to her on the phone.. *sigh* damn it all.. anyways, everything's good.. when i talked to her, i knew that she was incredibly sad and was very worried for me.. you know, about doing my projects and about my math.. arghh!! we're going to study trigo and she... (more) http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/comments?id=127 http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/archive/126.html Mon, 02 May 2005 13:29:38 GMT †•why do i keep feeling this way?!•† i don't know why i feel like this.. i know that i'm not jealous anymore.. but i still feel lonely.. it's like i'm not loved by anyone.. i feel awful, like my heart's NOT HERE.. like.. no one cares for me.. maybe there aren't people who care about me.. maybe everything that i feel is really TRUE.. and what if it is?? then i don't wanna live anymore.. i hate feeling like this.. i feel like SHIT..!! i feel like everyone will just throw me out like i'm some kind of garbage.. damn it! why do i always feel this way?! why?! oh well, it won't do me any good if i... (more) http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/comments?id=126 http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/archive/125.html Sun, 01 May 2005 15:13:24 GMT †•yet i can't seem to grasp the truth•† i have so many questions.. questions that always swirl inside my head.. but.. i can't answer even one of them.. i hate feeling like i'm nobody.. that i don't know how to live.. how to be happy.. and how to be really alive.. but it's TRUE.. i am a nobody.. someon who can't seem to find herself.. a person incapable of knowing herself.. someone who doesn't see the importance of living.. they say i'm strong, smart, someone with talent, someonw who can withstand anything.. but.. i know that i'm worthless.. i'm weak.. VERY WEAK.. When you think of your past... (more) http://bhaby09.blogdrive.com/comments?id=125