i don't know why i feel like this.. i know that i'm not jealous anymore.. but i still feel lonely.. it's like i'm not loved by anyone.. i feel awful, like my heart's NOT HERE.. like.. no one cares for me.. maybe there aren't people who care about me.. maybe everything that i feel is really TRUE.. and what if it is?? then i don't wanna live anymore.. i hate feeling like this.. i feel like SHIT..!! i feel like everyone will just throw me out like i'm some kind of garbage.. damn it! why do i always feel this way?! why?!
oh well, it won't do me any good if i keep on thinking about it.. by the way, i sang "becaose of you" and "so slow" on MKR.. haha!! ^_~v that's why this entry is titles "SO SLOW"..
oh right, you don't know what MKR is.. well, MKR is a chatroom.. we sing there and have lotsa fun.. MKR stands for "Music Kantahan Room".. i just go there, listen to the music, make friends, sing and let time pass.. you know, to forget 'bout my problems and stuffs.. *sigh*
eniweiz, 'nuff said..