i'm a DEVIL...
...in an ANGEL's diguise




I loved you the way I know but you fit me back right in your pleasure glove
Watch me now, don't underestimate 'cause you never ever see me run, run, run baby


[09] *> mE, mySeLF aNd i <* [09]
::.~a tragic and miserable life~.::


I relive the memories often in my mind,
bringing it back to life,
and I realize that when I do,
I alwayz feel a strange combination of sadness and joy..
There are moments when I wish I could roll back the clock and take all the sadness away,
but I have the feeling that if I did,
the joy would be gone as well..
So I take the memories as they come,
accepting them all,
letting them guide me whenever I can..





"the girl who lived.. loved.. was loved.. was hurt.. died.. and lived again.."


name:: LhuKhE^^

gender::
female..^^ hetero toh!!

birthdate::
march 6.. >_<;;

deathdate::
Saturday, March 19, 2050 [maybe sooner]

age of death::
59 years old.. hehehe.. [i think it'll be.. well, 14 years old?? and that means NOW!!]

hometown::
kEsOn cEeTee...^^ TamBaYeYoz pA RiN sA pRonT!!^^
occupation::
LiSenSyaDonG baLiw.. bOosTeR.. iyaKinG baTa.. ^_~v

schools::
JASMS nung elem, naku!!! FEU-FERN..^^

interests::
RPGs, MMORPGs, voLLeybaLL, RagNarok onLinE, TanTRa, GunBounD, pRisTonTaLe, KhaN, TeeN mAgz, chiLlin' wiD maH buDz, mag-inGay, manguLeTh, mangTriP, jOyRidE, muSic TriP, maTuLog sA kLaSe, chaTTiNg, neT surFiNg, biShounEn, dumaLdaL!!!

fave. books::
hm... siguro mga manga, W.I.T.C.H., k-zone, game masters, magz and stuffs, veronika decides to die, the alchemist, by the river piedra, i sat down and wept, and syempre, THE BIBLE...^^ wahaha!! bOok oF aPocaLypSe, boOk oF moTheR eaRTh, booK oF bLaziNg sUn, bOok oF gUsT oF wiNd, booK oF biLLoWs.. +10 bibLe^^

fave. music::
RnB, pop, senti, acoustic... =D, prontera, payon, alde, alberta ringtone^^, sa labas ng prontera, ah basta RO^^ lolz!! 1000 wordz.. my boo.. jeepney.. masaya.. hehehe.. >_<;;

YM:: kimasaki11 -&- lhukhe09

MSN:: lhukhe09@hotmail.com

friendster:: lhukhe09@yahoo.com

~mAh MoOd~
ahihi..^^


quotation of the day::"There was one time I fell inlove wid someone very special, & I told myself dat ill never give up on that someone but one day I did WHY? Coz I never knew how much LOVE can HURT"




~>>::JUST ME::<<~


me?? haha!! i'm a former RO addict.. but now.. i don't really play anymore.. 'coz.. i don't know.. maybe i just got bored with the game.. hehe.. i'm on the phone, 24/7, and always in front of my darn computer.. i always text my friendz.. and i'm always trippin'.. WARS were my thing back then.. but now, i'm not really into fights.. cease fire!!

i'm really a shallow person.. i am happy when my loved ones are happy..

a PESSIMISIC, snobbish type o' girl..??

yeah, yeah.. sure.. a complete pessimistic damn girl.. haha!! i admit it.. because it is, in fact, very TRUE.. a snob?! no way.. i admit that pessimistic-thingy.. but i am definitely NOT a snob.. >_<;;

talkative.. persistent.. lazy.. sleeps in class.. and most of the time, pretending to be sick so that i can sleep at the clinic.. haha!!^^ a cheerful girl that enjoys being around people.. moody.. a wrong person to pick a fight with..

make me angry and i'll break you to pieces.. O_o

an upfront person.. so forgive me if i say something that'll offend you.. >_<;;

a fight for you, WAR for me!! slap me at the face, i'll punch you hard so that your ass'll touch the moon.. hurt the one i love most in this miserable world, next day your friends'll see your body hanging on one of the overpasses of commonwealth ave. and your head in front of the campus!! so you better not touch him..

ahihi^^

wo0t!~ \m/_

[dakilang PAMPALIPAS ORAS]



~w!shLisT~

spongecola CD
new printer
kjwan CD
image ready
kitchie nadal CD
a new sim card
new house
bamboo CD
learn to play decent soccer
money
a new cellphone
a new PC
my own telephone line
new speaker
MP3 player [iPOD]
learn to play decent table tennis
new PS2 for me!!



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Sunday, May 22, 2005
you were there.. and you smiled..

†•that fragile rainbow in my mind.. don't worry.. i won't ever forget you.. when the rain stops, the sun will definitely smile.. i wish that fragile rainbow would stay.. forever..•†

wonderin' why i stopped posting entries?? well, it's 'coz there weren't much happenings during those days.. and well, if there are, i'll just tell you in this entry..

remember my MKR family?? well, they've been helping me a lot.. you know, keeping my mid off "THAT" thing.. and well, they've also been accompanying me when i'm lonely and when i need someone to talk to.. i mean, at MKR, i feel like i am wanted.. and i'm needed.. it's feels nice to be needed.. *sigh*

hehehe.. :P well, anyways, enough 'bout that.. oh yeah, right.. did you ever experience crying, but you completely don't know the reason?? i mean.. like that.. you see, one time, i was reading something.. and suddenly, my tears fell.. and it kept on going.. it didn't stop at all.. it kept on falling.. i caught my tears with my hands and looked at my hands.. clenched my fists and just continued on crying.. i don't know why i cried at that time.. it's just that.. it felt good.. to cry like that.. after i cried, i slept.. and when i woke up, i felt relieved.. like a BIG burden was lifted from my shoulders.. but.. i don't know what it was.. T_T

if you're thinking that it's because of HIM, well, i think NOT.. 'coz i wasn't thinking about him at that time.. i was just.. reading.. come to think of it, i was reading a story about happiness.. then why did i cry?? well, maybe it was just to relieve me.. i was troubled by something.. i can't explain what it was.. but something was definitely troubling me.. but after i cried, i wasn't troubled anymore.. i really felt at peace.. was i holding back on something?? yeah, maybe that was it.. i probably tried too hard to hold back my tears from falling.. you see, i'm pretty worried about my mom's operation.. the thought of going to school didn't even left my mind.. i was also thinking about how i can be as happy as the one in the story that i was reading.. so many problems.. so many complications and stuffs.. oh right, i remember, i was looking at a picture of a smiling girl, looking at a slightly grey sky with a rainbow through her window.. and then i.. i wished to be at peace like her..

haha!! maybe that was it.. that triggered it all.. ^_~v phew.. and i thought i was going mad.. oh well.. it happens.. haha.. ^_^ anyways, gotta go.. still need to do some things.. bye!!


Posted at 05:46 am by lhukhe09

 

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| do you really think that this is me?? | can't you tell that i'm wearing a mask?? a mask that shows happiness, always smiles and seems to have no problem at all.. | can't you see through me?? can't you save me?? help me.. i can't stand this this pain.. | it's like my chest is going to burst | i love you.. but you can't seem to understand | in this miserable world, you're the only reason why i continue, why i go on, why i'm alive.. | you are my reason!! why are you doing this to me?? and so, now, i have no reason.. and i wish to die.. to disappear in this world.. to walk away from everything that i've known..| because i don't understand why.. | why of all things, you were the one who left?! when you ARE my reason!! when you ARE my life!! | why?! why?! why?!